I would like to try out the cello but they are much too expensive.  Anyone have one they would like me to keep for a while?

I’m forcing this, but I don’t care.

This week started with drive all night just to get to work on Monday with no sleep.  When I got there I met an old man with a cigar (to chew on, not to smoke).  He asked me a few questions and then asked why I wasn’t married.  I didn’t really have an answer for him and that didn’t go over well. “You need to find yourself a boyfriend to keep you worm for the winter.  It’s getting down to the 60’s, you don’t want to be wrapped up in a blanket alone.”  If that wasn’t sad, depressing, and awkward enough he proceeded to tell me about this “young man” he had met the night before at the country club that he could set me up with. “He’s a good golfer.”  Good, just what I wanted.

Later, I went into a 2^nd interview with a photographer and I was offered the job!  She’s amazing and the building is unbelievable.  It was an old boarding building with tons of rooms, things falling apart everywhere, large windows, and ceilings that make the place eco. 

Then today happened, starting with a phone call from my dad.  My grandmother had a stroke while on the phone with my uncle, and she hasn’t woken up yet. They are saying she’s has just a couple of day’s left.  I called my mom who drove to the hospital by herself; she’s not well either.  Just waiting for phone calls.

Right now, I hate the cold weather.  It’s the evil behind my apathy.

Sparklers are one of the best joys in life…and so are cookies, but I just ate too many of them and I’ve learned to hate them in the moment.

I’ve been reading myself to sleep every night with a fairytale, and the book is running out of stories.  I was hoping they would just keep showing up and the last story would never come.  The search for another collection of fairytales begins. 

Eyes are heavy like rocks and my heart is filled with light air that come from friends breathing around me…coffee and smoke will kill me but right now leaves me lighter than before.

I rummaged through the garden today and came up with plenty to pass around.  I hope all those tomatoes find everyone well.  And I randomly grew a melon?  I think it may have come from the compost pile.  We also have a very early pumpkin that is completely out of place on the front step.  Maybe I’ll carve it and celebrate holidays early from now on.  Thanksgiving is next week and I’ve been celebrating Christmas for about a month now. I need some new holidays.  Like dino week. Or cookie exchange day. 

Still have yet to meet a dinosaur or at least someone named after a dino.  I’m going to need some help with this quest. 

Like I said my eyes are like rocks